To Share or Not to Share

This thought

has been occupying

my mind

of late:

“. . . Let this mind be in you,

which was also in Christ Jesus:

Who,

being

in the form of God,

thought it not robbery

to be equal

with God:

But made himself

of no reputation,

and took upon him

the form

of a servant,

and was made

in the likeness of men:

And being found

in fashion

as a man,

he humbled himself,

and became obedient

unto death,

even the death of the cross.”

(Philippians 2:1-8 KJV)

Accompanying this thought

is this thought:

should I,

knowing full well that

some of the concepts

I am writing about

are inconceivable

to those to whom

they are not given,

share these concepts openly?

Should I not rather

keep these things

to myself,

and just continue to

maintain

my role as a servant,

and prepare

to humble myself,

becoming obedient

even if it means

my death?

I find myself

Questioning

whether my ego,

selfishly desiring

acknowledgement and recognition,

is that which is

prompting me to share

these hidden,

controversial things,

so it may boast

in the glory

derived from

sharing things

that simply

should not be shared,

but rather lived,

and expressed by

demonstration.

But there is another voice

at work within me,

a voice of expression,

demanding that I speak

these ideas that I have guarded,

even kept hidden

within myself.

The battle continues,

between the Spirit

who is King,

and the adversarial ego

who wants to rule.

To my ego I say,

“get behind me Satan!

for you do not have in mind

the concerns of my Father

but the concerns

of my flesh

over which you compete

with me
for  dominion,
over
the temple,
the mansion,
 entrusted
to me.”