Compartmentalization

If I am not who I am,

Who then am I being?

If I

compartmentalize

myself,

my thoughts and character,

into

being different persons,

depending on the

circumstances

occurring around me,

am I not in those instances
misrepresenting myself
by being someone,

or something

I am not?

I am that I am

Nothing more,

Nothing less.

But if I add to what I am,
if I narrate,

if I project,

and perform
an act

in a story

a fiction,

about me—

a dream state within which

I must have my act together

To better perform my role,
I change

who I am being
to remain consistent with my story
about me.

When do I take off my mask

and simply come into 
the fullness of who I am?

Do I even know who that is?

Am I unaware that

I distinguish

and thereby compartmentalize

who I am being at home

from who I am being at work

from who I am being at church

from what I am being at school

from who I am being:

when with someone important

when with someone unimportant?

If the answer is

yes

I am lost
in my head

in my own story

about me.

The most important work

I can do today

Is to awaken to discover 
and to be

who I am.

 "Therefore let us not sleep, 

as do others; 

but let us watch and be sober.  

For they that sleep sleep in the night; 

and they that be drunken 

are drunken in the night. 

But let us, 

who are of the day, 

be sober, 

putting on the breastplate 

of faith and love; 

and for an helmet, 

the hope of salvation." 

1Thessalonians 5:6 -5.8