Idolatry

Something is on my mind.

I pray and see no results. 

But I am sure I am supposed to receive an answer.

I wonder what is wrong.

I am praying in my mind.

My person, 

my projection of me,
my delusional self,

is praying

To the God it created
through a conversation with itself,
After its image and likeness,
in its fear based,   
vain, 
and delusional 
imagination.

Within my mind, 

dwell the thoughts of my person,

"I just know that I am right,

Because I believe God is leading me

To do the right thing,

Telling me what to do."

It “feels” so right.

But the prayer never left my head.

It swirled around

the confines
of my internal conversation
I have about myself and

of the reality 
I create 
to live in.

The answer to the prayer 

finally comes

from within the world

created by me.

From my own imagination.

I am talking to myself!

Believing that God is telling me what to do.

How convenient that

My version of God tells my person

Exactly what it wants to hear.

How amazing it is that 

I am always right,

Always doing the will 

of my own being,

Of my own vain imaginings.

No wonder there are so many religions,

and so many denominations

within those religions.

Rather than distinguish 

our delusions about God,

we congregate with others

who share our thoughts,

who have similar 

imaginations and delusions

about what they perceive
God is,
about what they perceive 
the Bible says 
about God.

God is Spirit,

Am I not made in his image?

I too am therefore Spirit.

To communicate with God

I must acknowledge that 

He and I are One, 
That there is no separation
except the wall I project between us.

I must distinguish

between my imagination about Him,
on this side of my wall,

and the Spirit He and I are.

Between my projection of Him,

And the Truth He is.

I must align myself

In Spirit and in Truth,

Outside the confines of my mind.

Beyond the artificial boundaries,

The constraints,

The story,

of my person.

You have to be out of your mind

To talk to God.

To pray inside my mind,
To the God I create
with my imagination,

as though it were God,

and to act 
on my perceptions about God,
ever failing to understand 
that those perceptions 
are merely thoughts and ideas

derived from my own imagination;

and that they are not only 
delusion
and vanity,

but are the very essence of idolatry.


"There is a way that seems right to a man
But the end thereof leads to death."
Proverbs 16.25